God has been teaching me a lesson. A lesson about how unimportant I actually am. Let me explain:
I was part of the worship team at church, but for various reasons which i won't talk about here and lots of prayer I made the decision to take some time out. I never felt that it was the right place for me to be serving in and although I am a major advocate for NOT trusting your fickle feelings this was a deep rooted gut feeling which I couldn't ignore.
When I got around to telling the team leader I was leaving the response I got wasn't really what I was expecting. I know she was feeling under the weather but I was left pondering for the past few weeks why I got the reaction I did. I'm still none the wiser and have now given it to God. I'm over it.
Today in my prayer time God showed me just how replaceable and unimportant I really am. It was very self righteous to expect any reaction at all. Really I should have been thanking God for the time I served on the team and for the lessons I learnt.
For instance I am so much freer in my worship and have learnt a lot about communication and it's importance. I have learnt that if you try hard enough and lay your fickle feelings at the cross you can worship like you are having the best morning of your life - even if you have been in tears five minutes before the service.
I don't know what God has in store for me but I do know that I want to take some time out to just be in a service with no responsibilities. Then what? Well, I am still waiting for that to be revealed!
I was part of the worship team at church, but for various reasons which i won't talk about here and lots of prayer I made the decision to take some time out. I never felt that it was the right place for me to be serving in and although I am a major advocate for NOT trusting your fickle feelings this was a deep rooted gut feeling which I couldn't ignore.
When I got around to telling the team leader I was leaving the response I got wasn't really what I was expecting. I know she was feeling under the weather but I was left pondering for the past few weeks why I got the reaction I did. I'm still none the wiser and have now given it to God. I'm over it.
Today in my prayer time God showed me just how replaceable and unimportant I really am. It was very self righteous to expect any reaction at all. Really I should have been thanking God for the time I served on the team and for the lessons I learnt.
For instance I am so much freer in my worship and have learnt a lot about communication and it's importance. I have learnt that if you try hard enough and lay your fickle feelings at the cross you can worship like you are having the best morning of your life - even if you have been in tears five minutes before the service.
I don't know what God has in store for me but I do know that I want to take some time out to just be in a service with no responsibilities. Then what? Well, I am still waiting for that to be revealed!